Tuesday, February 03, 2009
.bakkwa is sad sad sad sad sad sad.
the end is near and i sense it
everyone knows it, but we just remain silent
u hope for the best, but you know it will be denied
the suffering will end when the end arrives
but yet, that figure would no longer be around
the emptiness of the home
the absence of the king
the absence of your "chiak bak ber"
it makes me sad, but yet i know it is the best for you
thank you for being there for me when i needed you
i will love you and remember you always
Friday, December 12, 2008
....GUESS WHO IS HERE...
Ah Gor and Rachel came to visit me before i got home for the christmas holidays.. what did we do... let me see...
(i) We watched Phatom of the Opera (for me, the 10th time and it SUCKED totally)
(ii) We ate
(iii) We shopped like hell
(iv) We drank (a little) and
(v) We had fun......
But at the expense of my credit card..... but who really cares anyway. I am super uber happy whenever people come to visit me in London.. it just makes me feel like my usual self... cos i am normally mugging like hell..
A view of the London eye.. both of them look like they were on the verge of collapsing
the view from the London eye
Da sao and me
MS TEO...i mean Jessica.. and me
Me and ah gor...
Oh we had such an awesome time!
it was great!
everything was simply brillant! fantastic!
so if any of you wanna come visit me...
tell me way way in advance!
bakkwa
..bloody frustrated about hamamatsu and other thingys..
Monday, November 17, 2008
Hais.. the workshop with Otis Murphy is on Thursday already.. but i still have no motivation to practice at all... isn't it a waste? especially since he is one of the adjudicators of Hamamatsu.. i should be working my ass off.. so that if he does decide to let me play for him.. at least i won't malu the shit out of myself.....
But i think the chances of getting it are really slim, this is especially after PS spoke to me and told me that if you are not a music conservatory student, you can forget about getting in.. well.. me.. being me.. I am dying to prove her wrong, but i just don't have the time to practice. i shall book the practice room tml....
Oh.. and this is the think i am suffering love sake over...
it is somewhere in my wardrobe at home.. i miss you xiao bao
bakkwa
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I suffering from love sick..
Saturday, October 25, 2008
...This is how my brain feels like now...
FRIED
I am starting saxophone lessons next week already.. i am so looking forward to it.. but i wonder what the standard for a professional saxophonist is here.. is he going to be like sugawa san?? I doubt so... haiss.. hamamatsu.. how how how how...
I miss everyone at home..
I will be back on 14th dec..
bakkwa
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Goodbye Summer, Hello Grey Skies of London
The summer break is finally over. Finally is perhaps an apt word. I am getting a little bored actually cos it was too long. I regret not applying to do an internship at a law firm. However, my schedule did not permit me to do so. So let it be. It is time to hit the books again. But before that, i think it is good to just think about some nice things that i did this summer...
Family Ties
This summer has been especially has been extremely rewarding as some of my cousins have matured from being irritating little imps to gentlemen. They were once kids who got on your nerves. Now, they are guys who are on the same frequency and wavelength as the most of us...
Enjoying dessert at "one bowl of dessert" at serangoon gardens... fantastic durian pudding which seems to be a "sellout" item. They have been sold out on 2 of our visits.
..These 2 photos were taken during Grand dad's birthday..
(i) the younger generation
(ii) the Kiam pah faces
Friends
This period has been a really down period for some friendships. Perhaps it is time to review some of them and perhaps end them. But some have been maintained. I being abroad to further my studies has been a good test to such friendship ties. Even though both Mic and myself agree that time would be able to solve any form of misunderstandings between friends, i think an exclsuion clause may just have to drafted into this statement.
There are some friends who I have not met up much with this summer. Perhaps once or twice. But its nice to know that you are there and I know that. Somehow when a bond is established and has gone through difficult times, there is a tendency for friends to get closer. But this is not an absolute statement. This summer break, I think I have tested this. Being bilateral in nature, both parties are suppose to contribute to sustain a friendship. However, when one party refuses to (regardless of whether wilfully or justified) contribute to it, a friendship would eventually breakdown. This statement applies regardless of the nature of the bond or relationship...
Eddie trying to pry open the pressure cooker at Mustafa...
Yirui, Myself and Chongming at the class gathering
Dave, Junie, Curls and myself at the Esplanade taking graduation photos
Class gathering for the mid-autumn festival at Brian's designer house
Junyu
who was suppose to visit me in London, but backed out from a flight cos of food poisoning
High Tea at Goodwood Park with gor and xius
Jasmine and myself at Millenia Walk
She was flaunting her umbrella with pink heart shapes
Alumni Saxophone Section
yuzhong, xavier, wancai, melvin and myself
saxy w.a.x.y., the alumni saxophone quartet, of which only 1 member currently plays with the alumni. Thank you for the wonderful sessions we had at NTU. For the fun, the laughter, the experience of playing together as a quartet, for enjoying the noise each other made. And of course, our official metranome, ah jim for recording 'new cinema paradiso'.
National Band Competition with the Saint's Alumni Band
An old photo which i dug out
Aspirations, dreams vs. harsh reality. There is a huge gap between what is viable and not viable. I know that it may not be possible. But i know, all i have is this chance and i am not going to have any other opportunity. However, someone had to give me a big wake up call today and told me that there is no point, as i would be no match to the others. Is the extra effort, money, sweat, frustation etc going to be worth it? I wonder. What is going to happen now? Should i just wait for Prof. Murphy to reply my email? Or should i tell her that I want to go ahead with it? I don't have the luxury of time.
Flying back to London on 17th Sep on SQ's 9a.m. flight out of Singapore, bound for London
Looking forward to returning to School, leading a loner life, mugging like hell in the library and perhaps, Hamamatsu next year
Goodbye all!
~Bakkwa~
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Welcome back xius...
Met up with ah gor and xiuz at the Goodwood Park Hotel for English high tea by the pool side. I thought the food was nice... it was a quality buffet and not a typical "quantity" buffet in a hotel. The kitchen made 4 finger sandwhiches at a time and topped it up... i.e. the food was fresh. Xius was doing very well, gorging down the buffet... i was a tad slower and ah gor gave up after 3 plates (i think)... the pictures would explain why...
Ah gor looking satisfied with his picks from the buffet table
An up close shot of his plate... it is FULL...
...This was my plate....
A very hungry xiuli... i wonder what she is trying to devour...
Dropping xius at NUS BTC, cos she needed to catch the shuttle bus to the main campus
Alec's Kitchen...
I promised the teachers at SAS that i would make someting for them to eat everytime i visited them.. Its a little difficult to think of what to make and bring cos
(i) I have to think of their dietary preferences
(ii) How i can transport the food
(iii) The amount of time i have to prepare the food
(iv) Whether i would be satisfied with the food (it must not only taste good but must be aesthetically pleasing and better if it is confusing)
Had a relatively smaller menu today as i had to make Onion Marmalade or Onion Jam from scratch and that involves a 2 hour cooking process...
The amount of onion jam i get fom about 1.5kg of shallots and white onions
The completed pie, dressed with mozzarella slices... could not find buffalo mozzarella, so i just had to settle for some cheapie mozzarella that cold storage stocked
the completed dish dressed with the vinegrette reduction! yummy!
I had a little slice.. about the size of my thumb...
The joy of cooking is in seeing other enjoy it and love it
~bakkwa~
